..... 500+ pageviews.....

thank you..... im not worthy... i feel so honored to be so mildy interesting that people would look at my work.

thank you.

Anxiety.... pressure.... frustration.

Im getting too close to my first 500 pageviews..... and the overwhelming stress of college, family death and human interaction is starting to take its toll on me.

My grandfather Died last wednesday. Im starting to slip on my schoolwork. I really do fail at this whole work ethics thing.... v.v;

i think ill try and put some art up.... i guess....

.... This cant be possible..... I sign onto Deviant art for the first time in GOD KNOWS HOW LONG.... watch the little flash thingie.... yaaay DevArt v5! check my messages.. yadda yadda yadda....
and then it hits me as i slowly look at my number of pageviews.....

... 404....

WHEN THE CRUD DID THAT HAPPEN?!

and possibly even more importantly:

WHAT ARE YOU PEOPLE LOOKING AT THET YOU LIKE SO GOD DAMN MUCH?!

._.; im feeling very pressured and insecure......

I guess i never really thought of my art as something really.... worth looking at... v.v;
anyways... ill have more up... if that's what you people really want.... ._.;

.. It seems like i Havent been uploading many drawings recently.... i guess ill have to do more of that.... but still.... something just makes me feel very imbalanced all of a sudden...

what the hell...

i sign onto deviant art and it tells me my subscription is almost up....
I didnt even know In was subscribed! X.X! please tell me who did this.... x.x